Here I am again with another book review!
Before you ask, this is NOT a book about being popular and shallow and the media’s idea of beauty.
Maybe that’s why I liked it so much. A lot of books targeted at girls my age are about that, and I get it, like, middle schoolers are always trying to be like the ‘cool’ kids, and Echosmith even wrote a whole song about it. IT DOESN’T MATTER. Especially if you’re Erin. (The MC in this book)
Another thing I liked about this book is that it doesn’t have a predictable, classic happy ending: I was getting tired of reading books like that. It’s unique. It’s about a real girl with real struggles, and about Erin finding herself. It’s on a topic that is sad but true, and thee emotions are incredible.
Positively Beautiful
(You might notice that I chose pink for the text. It’s not because it’s a pretty color. Keep reading)
Erin’s life is a before and after picture. Before are all the good memories. After is reality, and the cold, hard truth. When Erin’s mom is diagnosed with breast cancer, her life turns upside down. The two have always been there for each other. But suddenly nothing else matters. Graduation? It’s the last thing on Erin’s mind. College? No. School? Friends? (both are pretty awful at the moment) What she is thinking about is keeping her mom alive, and sometimes she is so scared but she can’t give up, because if she does then so will her mom, and she is not ready for that. Erin takes up flying so that she has an outlet, so that she can find something else to focus on. Her father was a pilot, and she loved watching the planes fly. It’s an amazing feeling. One day everything goes wrong. Erin finds out she has the BCRA mutation, meaning she could get cancer. Her mom isn’t getting better, and she just can’t take it. School is horrible, and she needs to get away from everything. A plane ride quickly turns into a crash-landing in the middle of nowhere, but she doesn’t care-she is too worried for her mom, too worried about herself. Will she have to cut off her breasts to avoid cancer? And will she live? What is going to happen to her, and what about her life? Erin has met a girl online. Someone just like her, who has the mutation, whose sister might have it too. She finds herself pouring out her story to the girl, Ashley. When she’s all alone, she calls her, hanging on to her last thread of hope. Quickly finding out that Ashley, this girl she thinks she’s been talking to is a boy, she is confused. The boy’s name is Jason and he practically saved her life. He has the mutation. (yes, that is possible.) His little sister Ashley has a possibility of having it too, and he doesn’t want to think about death-he wants to live. But it’s so hard to live knowing how you might die. He shows Erin his calm place, his island.
Erin might be falling in love with Jason, and he can’t help but fall in love with her a little bit too. But wait. Jason said he would never fall in love, because when you do, you will lose them, and it just hurts too much. Erin loves Jason’s family, but she needs to go home, her mother needs her. Upon arriving back in Atlanta, she is a mess of tears, missing Jason and crying for her mom. The cancer is getting worse and Erin’s mom is going to die soon, and there is no one who understands it other than Jason. Who lives in Florida. But he comes back, just for Erin. “Life is too short to waste by yourself when you love someone.” He says. So he does love Erin. And she is losing everything, and what is so sweet is that he is there, and he will be there, even when something this scary is happening. That’s what it means to be brave. Really and truly. Eventually it is time for her let go, to face the world without her mother. Jason made it possible. She is living her life to the fullest, living today like there is no tomorrow, because she truly doesn’t know if there will be. Cancer is not going to takeover her life again. She is strong, she is smart, she is positively beautiful.
So that was a rather long summary, but I had to tell you about all the wonderful things in this book. It is unbelievable. It was beautifully written, and I 100% recommend it. It is worthy of tears. It’s that good.
I think 800+ words is quite a lot, so I’ll stop here.
Does this book sound like something you would read?